A Mini Diary Of Hers

its been two years

2012-02-09T18:11:00.002+08:00

I checked the last post and it was dated January 2010 so its been two years since i blogged. and when i read my old posts i felt very embarrassed :s

i'll be leaving in 15 days to Seoul, Korea for four months as a part of UBD student exchange program to Ewha Womans University. i never wanted to go there and applied for Malaysia the first time but maybe its just my rezeki. the fun part would be the fact that the place I'm going is the Center of Kpop world lol. and the sad part is leaving everyone here in Brunei. i'll be missing out a lot. thankfully mama and babah will be with me there for a week.

but still, it'll be so hard to say goodbyes :(

Time after time

2010-01-09T00:12:00.001+08:00

I forgot to eat my dinner. and im definitely hungry right now but i dont want to eat, eventhough the kitchen is just a metre away from me.

Oh that was random.

Its a Brand New Year! Its 2010!

Recent news? I made it through the First semester! with 3.29 gpa, which i dont quite understand what my overall grade really is. But im quite shocked with my result, i was expecting lower grades. haha. I promise that this semester i'll be focusing on my studies, no more library hangouts, im totally over it. LOL!

So the end of 2009 I spent it in KL with my families. We were so tired that we decided not to go down and join the celebration and all the partying as well as concert right down our apartment building. But the best part was, we watched fireworks from diifferent places right from our balcony. and it really was beautiful, cos it came from different places.

The trip was probably the best family trip ever, not to mention the shopping part. Its like, SALE everywhere. I definitely broke my promise to buy the only things i needed, and things for school. haha. shopping for the clothes and shoes definitely are my guilty pleasure :)

enough of that, lately i've been hearing stories about a friend who were described as a Backstbber. Oh well, i can accept that, since i dont care much about those kind of people nowadays. i'll try my best to be as angelic as i could be. And i might also talk about people, but if you really know me, you'll know that deep inside i didnt really mean it, its just my mouth. im just a human, i make mistakes, i do sins. and im still working on on it. :)

and to You, i really appreciate you saying sorry. i hope you do mean it. and even if i didnt reply you anything, it doesnt mean i ignored it, i just need time.

The Nineteen Club

2009-12-16T11:08:00.003+08:00

Its someone's birthday today!

Oh wait! its my birthday!

Nineteenth Birthday... :)

I woke up feeling great today, and thats all i wanted.

The birthday wishes and prayers made my day.

THANK YOU ALL!!

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!

I didnt expect much today, i just want happiness. and being around the siblings and younger cousins playing game and just laughing made me realised that to make myself happy i dont need parties, presents or celebrations. i love them :)

And today, i realised that i finally grew up, from the inside. Life is short, and its not the life here that we should only think about =)

The end of Semester One.

2009-12-05T22:35:00.001+08:00

Its been a while!

But hey, its the holidays! and i'll be leaving for KL in 23 days! I cant wait to get out of Brunei =D

Exams were over last week. but i dont feel relieved at all. maybe its because i screwed up my socio paper =( im afraid of what the results will be. we could not fail our major, or else...

Oh anyways, life's been not so good. I think next semester i might turn myself into anti-social. cos the first semester wasn't so good. i screwed up, and ended up humiliating myself. well, it wasn't fully my fault actually. im just bad in judging people. It turned out that some people are jerks, they get so perasan when they heard someone likes them. and in the end they kept on being sarcastic to you whenever they see you.

Recently a friend has been a major pain in my ass. I do wish him hell. cos i never did anything to him, i even tried my best to be a good friend. but he texted me and said he hates me, for what reason? well i dont know. but if its because of the picnic, the truth is, i didnt plan it. i didnt even know if you were invited or not. I decided to come to the picnic at the last minute. so im not the one you should hate. you should realise that i have reasons to hate you, but i didnt. cos we're friends. but what did you ever do for me? Its just the sarcasms and accusations you gave me. You're not worth it dude. And i deserve an apology, cos you just ruined my entire month.

I know most people would by now be asking how and where i'm gonna celebrate my birthday. sorry guys, im not celebrating. im just not in the mood. all i want as a birthday wish is just for everything to be okay. and really, i want everyone to be with me during my big day, but this year i dont think its gonna happen. a lot has happened, and my year didnt turn out so well. im not whining, i just needed to let it out.

Right now i felt so left out. I dont know why and by whom but the times when i needed them, they weren't there. i just missed them, but it doesnt seem like people care.

I havent gone out with them. and i dont want to plan to go out, cos i've always been the one who planned. i dont wanna plan, cos people then would say im bossy or anything. so yeah, i will go out, if i ever been asked by anyone.

this post is full of sarcasm, but really, the truth is painful.

For Gixe, on her birthday :)

2009-09-29T22:43:00.005+08:00

I’m wishing you another year
Of laughter, joy and fun,
Surprises, love and happiness,
And when your birthday’s done, I hope you feel deep in your heart,
As your birthdays come and go,
How very much you mean to me,
More than you can know. On your birthday,
I wish for you the fulfillment
of all your fondest dreams.
I hope that for every candle
on your cake
you get a wonderful surprise.
I wish for you that
whatever you want most in life,
it comes to you,
just the way you imagined it,
or better.
I hope you get as much pleasure
from our friendship as I do.
I wish we were sisters,
so I could have known you
from the beginning.
I look forward to
enjoying our friendship
for many more of your birthdays.
I'm so glad you were born,
because you brighten my life
and fill it with joy.
Happy Birthday!

SITI NURHAZIQAH ZAINAL @ GIXE

Selamat Hari Raya! :)

2009-09-20T20:44:00.001+08:00

Not so beautiful disaster.

2009-08-29T22:42:00.003+08:00

my router broke down, and the modem doesnt seem to work. so yeah, im hoping to get back my internet SOON!

Memories of 2009

2009-08-27T15:04:00.004+08:00

PANTAI SERASA

LAST DAY OF JUNE AS EXAM, GYM & GADONG

ARABIAN NIGHT PART 2

WEEKEND WITH THE BLOODLINKED GIRLS

Prejudice is Ignorance

2009-08-27T14:01:00.003+08:00

'Someone' on my tagboard asked me to update. So im updating now. well, i've planned to blog today anyway. Since i have no class today! Yeay :)

So basically, my week has been typical, with lots of assignments to think about, well, i just 'think' of it, havent done anything btw. cuz the deadlines are mostly in october or November, so, yeah..

Last Monday was great. We watched MJ's video Black or white in Communication Skills 1 class. it was very educating, and i love the class too :) We also had Listening Assessment at the same time. and its hardddddd......... :(

I had my first presentation last Tuesday, for Environmental Studies. Needless to ask about it, cuz without further doubt i'll just say, its not satisfying. cuz i was too lazy to do much on it, since i hate the subject, but i dont feel like changing to other subjects as well. The AS results were also out last Monday. And i only upgraded Elit from E to D. Its not good enough, but its fated, and i couldnt really whine about it cuz i didnt study hard for it. At that point i just didnt care. Congrats to Gkah on the B for her Maths anyway, im jealous btw! Oh, i havent collected my result slip as well as my nov A level certificate. i dont have anyone to accompany me there, since the family is always busy. the only days im free is Friday and Sunday, the days in which the school is closed. And now i have Tadarus and family function every Friday and Sunday throughout the Fasting month.

There's also a sungkai gathering at azzie's this Sunday, in which i couldnt come though i desperately needed to gather with the friends. oh well, its just me that couldnt come as everyone chose the date 30th instead of the 31st august, so its okay. plus, i needed my rest. cuz next week's gonna be hectic as well.

So as usual, fasting month has been very interesting to me, despite the tiredness during lectures and tutorials. i feel like sleeping all day long.

I think Ramadhan really challenges you to be more patient. cuz sometimes i feel offended by the tiniest word people say to me, or the actions made by some people. im just a human, i do have feelings too, i just dont show it, and i couldnt stand sarcasm or the 'cold' behaviour people showed to me whether intentionally or unintentionally, regardless of what happened to you. we all have problems, we all have feelings, its just the way you deal with it, you dont really have to show it. I've been there, done that. And so now, my mind always speak to me, "just bear with it Zai, patience is virtue". so yeah, im being very patient right now.

The trip to the Health Centre

2009-08-20T14:42:00.004+08:00

Im having a 4 days off! Yeay! I dont have any class every Thursday so that makes my holiday this week longer than everyone else's. So, what happened yesterday..

Business Tutorial.
Presentations by two people. And the class was just, awkward. needless to say that it my least favourite class.

Sociology Lecture
Me and Anis came on time! But most people were already there and we didnt get the front seats, it was embarassing. It would be BETTER if we sat in front so we could focus more *kirai2*. Both of us talked all the time cuz we were too lazy to copy the notes about Karl marx, Emile Durkheim and Max Weber. Cuz we've learnt that before. After class, waited in front of the class with Far, cuz she wanted to see the male lecturer. haha, he's kinda okay. "Me suka you cakap Malay." HAHA remember this Nis???

Lunch.
We had lunch that we bought from the PMUBD shop. Then went to FASS and just sit and talk. We needed to find someone to drive us to IM since we had to go there by 1.30 for our trip to the Health Centre. We tried asking people but none could help us. and thankfully (seriously), Far and Anis bravely asked this two guys from our Healthy Lifestyle class to gave us a lift since they're going there too. It was very nice of them to bring us there :D

IM
Here's the embarassing part. Seliparku putus again! HAHAHA why does this always happen to me??? Thank God that it could be fixed by putting a pin on it. and so, we went into the bus, there were 20 of us including the lecturers.

Health Centre
It started with a presentation by the Health officer, then a tour around the Galleria and research centre. The place was soooo cool! And it was really educating. I think im going there again, for the assignments and group work :D There's this part when we entered a 'tummy' where we watched videos of how a baby developed inside a mother's womb. and the place is scary man, seriously. haha. "Rasa sayang hey rasa sayang sayang hey.." haha i dont like that song now. and there's this two 'booth', one for men, and the other for women only. The women part was showing how to detect Breast cancer, and the model was half naked. Thank God the model was not Malay. And from they guys we heard that the model for the Tescticular cancer detection was a Malay! HAHAHA omg. how embarassing was that?!

Home
The guys sent us back to the fbeps area. It was so nice of them :) and i went home around 4.30.

Overall, it was a great day, though i was having trouble controlling my emotion due to the first day of period and the tummy ache. :)

new layout :D

2009-08-18T21:36:00.003+08:00

And so, i finally changed my layout. Well, i kinda like it. Of course, cuz i spent more than 3 hours doing it! haha. its kinda simple, cuz i prefer simple for now.

Oh, i just heard this Chinese song. and it reminds me of Anis. Cuz she was speaking in Chinese today. Annoying NIS! HAHA but i love you. see you tomorrow, bitch.

i gotta feeling.

2009-08-18T16:53:00.005+08:00

My blog layout totally sucks, its messy! i cant find any perfect skin to replace it. i guess i'll let it be just like that for now.

Well, i havent really been blogging lately. Sorry for that. Well, to be honest, my life has greatly changed since i went into UBD, in a positive way i suppose. I havent changed, not at all, its just my life that has changed haha.

So far my days in uni has been fun, i still love to play around, as usual. Told you i havent changed at all. Unbelievable? Ask them :D haha.

In a way uni life is FUN, though the assignments are like one week's laundry being put together. I dont wanna count it, Farr. haha i know its a lot but im not gonna count it. Kau saja count eh HAHA.

Today, Anis went home early, she doesnt have any afternoon class. So Suraya, Far and I were stuck there. We were too lazy to go out. Far wanted to go to Taman Selera which is 10mins walk from where we were at that time. But then, thinking of the not-so-yummy foods, we changed our minds.

I feel like driving, well, soon tah ku drive. cuz i am too lazy to park the car. I wanna drive cuz i couldnt stand the Taman Selera foods, and i wanna lunch out saja with the girls. Loser bah kami atu if kan makan the canteen food haha, no offence.

And today i volunteered to present during next week's environmental studies tutorial. Oh what a record! Me? volunteering?? HAHAH

Tomorrow, we're going to the Health Care centre, for Healthy Lifestyle class. Its gonna be me, Anis, Far and the other 17 students. Anis, you should be excited *cough Anis cough* hahaa, please dont kill me :p

im running out of words.

Oh, MR Bean has a blog. *kirai2* and i spent last night reading it :p

Ttyl people :)

P.S: Songs of the day, you are not alone, they dont care about us and i gotta feeling. By Nis and Far. HAHA

Battlefield

2009-08-15T18:45:00.000+08:00

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battle-field

One word turns into a
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)
Why does love always feel like..

Can't swallow our pride,
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mhmm
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose what we had, oh no

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your...

We could pretend that we are friends tonight (oh-oh-oh)
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
Cause baby we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like..

A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield,
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor...

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for (fighting, fighting for)

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor

Why does love always feel like...
Why does love always feel like...
A battlefield, a battlefield..

I never meant
to start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for

I never meant
to start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for

I'll be there

2009-08-07T22:40:00.002+08:00

You and I must make a pact, we must bring salvation back
Where there is love, I'll be there

I'll reach out my hand to you, I'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name and I'll be there

I'll be there to comfort you,
Build my world of dreams around you, I'm so glad that I found you
I'll be there with a love that's strong
I'll be your strength, I'll keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well that's all I'm after
Whenever you need me, I'll be there
I'll be there to protect you, with an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name and I'll be there

If you should ever find someone new, I know he'd better be good to you
'Cause if he doesn't, I'll be there
Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah
I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there

I'll be there, I'll be there, whenever you need me, I'll be there
Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah

I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there...

dedicated to my bestfriends. Just so you know, everything i do, i never meant to hurt you guys. and i would not hide anything from you guys...

Love is a riddle

2009-08-06T10:18:00.002+08:00

I was feeling all down yesterday, but i entertained myself by chatting to my babes, and the ex classmates. Im glad i have those friends :)

I have no class today! :D So i slept late last night, chatting to Anis then watching TV. So far my classes were okay but Socio class is the best! ;) I think Anis also agrees with me. hahah. I think because the people are interesting and i just love sociology? hahah.

Oh yeah, yesterday was Pak Ngah's Birthday and Today is Babu Amoi's and Serimah's. Happy Birthday everyone :)

Gkah and Anis are calling me Counsellor now, just because i gave advices to them. Im not a councellor, i just like to give my own opinions. haha.

I think i like one of Gkah's blog songs, Malu malu tapi mahu by ecca. So here's the lyrics, i wanna dedicate it to ANIS, Aida, Gkah and myself. HAHA. Cuz i know, we all have been in this situation ;)

Oh inikah rasanya
bila sedang jatuh cinta
hatiku ber bunga2
gelisah tak menentu ku dibuatnya

sehari saja tak bertemu
sewindu rasanya bagiku
ingin segera bertemu
kaulah pengobat rinduku

tapi ku takut ungkapkan semua
ku takut dia ada yang punya
biarkan rasa ini kupendam saja
Tuhan tolonglah ku cinta dia

tapi aku malu ku malu2 tapi mau
sungguh2 aku malu merona merah pipiku
tapi aku malu ku malu2 tapi mau
Tuhan tolonglah diriku buatlah dia jatuh cinta padaku
itu pintaku

Oh inikah rasanya
bila sedang jatuh cinta
karna dia yang kudamba
dia yang kupuja

tapi ku takut ungkapkan semua
ku takut dia ada yang punya
biarkan rasa ini kupendam saja
Tuhan tolonglah ku cinta dia

tapi aku malu ku malu2 tapi mau
sungguh2 aku malu merona merah pipiku
tapi aku malu ku malu2 tapi mau
sungguh2 aku malu merona merah pipiku

tapi aku malu ku malu2 tapi mau
Tuhan tolonglah diriku buatlah dia jatuh cinta padaku
itu pintaku

Long Distance

2009-08-04T20:42:00.003+08:00

Hello guys! How have you been? Im great. well, not really. I feel sleepy all the time since uni life starts. Why? cuz its tiring. The uni is huge, though compared to UK unis its kinda small. but its great lah :) i miss being this busy.

And most importantly, i miss my babes. We used to be together all the time in MD. And now we are separated. Long distance baby :( Me and anis are in Ubd though, we're taking the same subjects. But really, i miss them the most.

I was gonna post recent pictures here, but i think tomorrow saja :)

I miss someone too. He's been missing since, forever. I miss his writings. I dont think i'll ever see him again :( Again, long distance.

I think im obsessed with the song long distance cuz the lyrics really reminds me of everyone haha.

Oh well, its okay. Life must go on :) eventhough we're 'long distance' :p

Just for the sake of updating.

2009-07-17T15:24:00.004+08:00

I went shopping this morning, to buy kain for baju kurung. Im gonna need those for ubd. And sadly, i dont have that many simple baju kurung that's suitable to wear. I only have like 13 simple but not that simple baju kurung/baju fesyen. and sadly most of them needs alterations here and there, since most of them are too big and i only wore it once. haha so i bought 5 new kain. I still dont think its enough. I dont wanna wear the same baju over and over again. I just hoped that ubd will impose a new rule which allows students to wear very appropriate casual clothings.

Talking about UBD, have you heard that some students didnt actually get into ubd? cuz ubd made a mistake by publishing the wrong lists of people who were accepted. Its just unacceptable, and unfair. So now where do the students stand? They cant go anywhere, blame the mistake made by those in charge. I seriously think they should think of a way to help those unlucky students, not abandoning them just like that. Okay, enough with that.

Oh, the Arabian Night Part 2 held at Nini Babu's was fun. The food was great though i dont really like Arabian foods before. The music was nice, and there was a photoshoot. The pictures were all beautiful! I'll post them here next time okay :)

I also shopped for my doa selamat this Monday :)

Btw, the orientation's gonna start this 26th July, im nervous and not that excited, since Gkah's not gonna be with us anymore :( blame ubd's mistake for that! eh majal hehe. No worries babe, maybe your rezeki is somewhere else kan. or you can appeal? I really want you to be with me and Anis :(

Pictures taken during a day out with Baz and Aida to celebrate Baz's 19th birthday, 19th June 2009. More pictures will be uploaded on facebook :)

Music for the soul

2009-07-14T10:18:00.003+08:00

I just changed my blog song. I love this song, not really the lyrics but the music. I never liked Lily Allen's song but this one really caught my attention. I know the song is uncensored, but who cares haha. Oh, and this song is dedicated to the ex bestfriend, Q. :D

On the other hand,
Happy Belated 44th Birthday Mama
(12th July)
and
Happy Belated 22nd Birthday Kaka.
(13th July)
I ♥ both of you! :D

also to
Daniew (9th July) and Pak Chic (10th July).

To all Maktab Duli Graduates U6 2008

2009-07-08T15:26:00.001+08:00

Salam all,
It seems that at the moment most of you now have an idea of where you are going. Can you please help us by informing the HEU the following details,

Full Name
AE Year
Results/Subjects Taken
Destination: UBD?ITB?KUPUSB?UNISSA?SCHO

LARSHIP/overseas (where and what course)

This information would be very useful for us to help update our database and at the same time we also like to know how you are doing!

Please do email the above details at mdheunit@gmail.com, with your name and AE as the title.

We hope and pray that you're are doing very well and continually support you in your future endeavours.

We look forward to hearing from you!

Regards,
Miss Yani

UBD, here i come ;)

2009-07-06T17:48:00.002+08:00

I think its time for me to re-activate this blog again :) Im gonna start using this blog again, though maybe i cant blog everyday.

If you're wondering whats up with me, all i can say is, Life has its ups and downs, friends come and go, and i know whos sincere to me and whos not :) And Alhamdulillah, i got accepted into UBD, along with Gkah, Anis and Moon. I know this might not be what i have always wanted, but hey, i got accepted into a University, its better than nothing, right? :) I feel like putting pictures here, but i havent finished gathering the pictures from Gkah, Azzie and Ainie.

I wanna congratulate my friend, Liza on her wedding yesterday. Glad you invited us, cuz you're my first friend to get married. May you both love each other deeply until the end of your lives :) and have babies soon! :D

Also, Congratulations to everyone who got accepted to UBD, UNISSA, ITB and Scholarship. All the best to you guys. Our 8 months holiday shall end soon :) Work hard people! And dont forget me eventhough you're going overseas, okay? :D

Till then,
Take care people :)

You're Older and Wiser

2009-06-25T10:25:00.003+08:00

This Woman turned Nineteen today, joining Anis.

HAPPY 19th NURUL HIKMATULL SU'AIDAH.
a.k.a AIDA

You're old enough to get your license now, so dont hesitate to get it just because the three of us are driving already :p I wish you'll be showered with happiness and may Allah bless you. may all your dreams come true babe. Study smart, i know you can do it. I love you babe. :D

Someone's turning Seventeen!!

2009-04-24T00:30:00.001+08:00

I just wanna wish a Happy 17th Birthday to my beloved and coolest and most annoying cousin, INSYIRAH. The one who I shared happiness and sadness with for seventeen years. The person who always bite people when we were little. The person who is always 1 year 4 months younger than me. The person who'd stay up til 3am with me, and just talk. She's my cousin, and she is also a bestfriend :)

Confessions of a Shopaholic

2009-03-27T01:00:00.003+08:00

I wanna watch 'Confessions Of A Shopaholic'. And i wanna watch it with my shopaholic babes (they know who they are). If you guys have watched it already, without me, i'd be so pissed! Seriously! I mean, FINE! If kamu liat sudah, then i'll find somebody else to watch it with!!! Eh apakan, tarus2 menyamal. Bah goodnight, or shall i say, 'morning'?

Baby Boy :D

2009-03-18T12:39:00.000+08:00

Im going to KB, in just a few mins. Why? Because Maksu just gave birth to a new baby BOY :D Yeay, finally. Haha. Another baby is coming next month I guess :D

Right now everyone is passing the MMS picture of the baby, all the way from KB. Im so thrilled! Cant wait to see him! :D

He's so cute! :D

Reunion. important

2009-03-16T10:10:00.003+08:00

This is to all ex 4A/5A classmates batch 2005/2006.

There will be a reunion for us..

Date : 22nd March 2009
Venue : Rizqun International Hotel
Time : 1 pm - 6 pm only (check in by 2 pm)
Collection : $20/head
Take Note : Bring extra clothing :)

**The $20 collection are for the payment for the hotel room, and also for foods. Dont worry, if there's any extra money we'll give it back.

**The extra clothing means swimming attire, of course for swimming. And extra clothes :D

Those who will come, please contact either me or Azzie A.S.A.P
And spread to others also.

Thank You.

Hot and Cold : Sick Leave

2009-03-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

If you guys were wondering where i've been this few days, just read the title. I got this 'infection' I dont wanna tell people about, its too embarassing.

And the 'infection' made me sick starting yesterday, after i went back from the wedding and Mall outing with Azzie. Will blog about it as soon as I recover from this sickness.

I went to Borneo Clinic this afternoon. The doctor said my 'infection' is healing, but she still have to give me antibiotic and painkiller and cream so it would go away. I was given two types of antibiotics. Usually they give one, i dont know why she gave me two types. Whatever.

The last time Im this sick was 2006. Haha.

So peeps, i have to be excused from the outside world for a few days. No one knew Im sick. So, sorry to the people who texted me since yesterday, the ones who mentioned me on their blogs, the ones who left me messages on my cbox. Im sick people. Sorry for not informing.

Bah thats all. I have to eat my meds, and rest :)

At Peace :D

2009-03-07T10:36:00.002+08:00

What is the saddest thought you can think of?
>> Having no one to share joy and happiness.

Who is the most horrible driver you know?
>> HAHA i dont wanna say it here :p

How often do you check your email?
>> Supposed to be everyday, but then malas, haha and it has reached 1000+ unread messages. Si Sahmin tau tu haha :p

What movie should be released on DVD but hasn't been released yet?
>> I dont know.

Have you ever imagined that you are not really of this world?
>> Not really what? haha I think something's missing in the question?

Do you still have imaginary friends?
>> Inda.. Im eighteen :D

Where do you hang out on your spare time?
>> Everywhere!

What year were you born?
>> 1990

What is your sign?
>> Sagittarius

Do you go to school?
>> Yes! Well, used to, im on holiday right now ;)

Where?
>> The last school I went to was MDPMAMB

What grade or year are you?
>> Beyond Upper Sixth.

What year did you/will you graduate from high school?
>> 2007

Do you appreciate nature?
>> Of course

If you could be someone else for a day who would you be?
>> Britney Spears haha

What's more important, first impressions or lasting impact?
>> Both are important. First impressions are important cuz it decides whether you'll get a better lasting impact or not. So basically, its both connected.

Are you always trying to learn new things?
>> Oh yeah baby.

Do you feel at peace?
>> Uhuh.

Do you recycle?
>> Sometimes.

Are you sensitive to the needs of others?
>> Im not sure.

Do you dress up to go to the mall?
>> HAHAHA yeahhhh, tapi si Aida lagi tia over than me!

Is fourteen your lucky number?
>> Nope, my lucky number is 3 and 8 :D

Is ignorance really bliss?
>> Depends on the situation and your mood.

Do you ever get the feeling people are laughing at you?
>> All the time! They do laugh at me okay! *haha prejudice ani wah*

Tell me why you don't like Mondays.
>> Monday Blues? I used to have History afternoon class every Monday during college days, but now not anymore. Everyday is the same for me right now. I dont like Mondays cuz everyone went back to school and work on Mondays and leaving me alone with nothing to do! HAHA.

And now I tag,

Aida
Ateeqa
Madd
Moon
Remy
Zaty

Saturday night Barbeque

2009-03-04T10:24:00.005+08:00

Goodmorning world! Haha I guess its already late right now. I know i know, I woke up late.. I couldnt sleep last night. But I feel so fresh today :D

Last Saturday was fun. I did mention that I was going to Anis's for a BBQ right? I baked something in the afternoon, while Aida sitting down doing nothing. haha. She came early. Gkah picked us up and went to the Mall to buy something for Anis. Headed to Shabby Chic, wasting time fighting over the things we wanna buy for Anis. HAHA. We then made up our mind, and settle down at Gelato to have a drink and made a big card for Anis.We took approximately 45 minutes doing it. Which eventually led to the late arrival of us at Anis's. Not to mention the traffic jam that made me nuts. We arrived around 9-ish pm.

It was awkward when we first arrived, Anis wasnt there. But in the end it turned out to be great! :D The food was great. And the people were cool ;) I dont feel like elaborating more right now. Let the pictures do the explaining :D Oh btw, some of the pictures were missing cuz something happened when Gkah transferred the pictures to her laptop.

P.S: I hate my hair that night :(

In the process of making something for Anis

and it turned out to be like this! :D

With Anis's guy friends from MD

The guys were emotionless. HAHA
with Anis's sister, Ain. She's great! :D
Us :D
I love them! ;D

February~

2009-02-28T15:36:00.002+08:00

I just realised I have not posted anything for February. And I dont want February 2009 post to be unavailable so here I am, updating. February was, hectic yet amazing. A lot had been happened and things never went smooth and always unexpected. But I am grateful I survived through February. Haha I know, its no big deal. Well, Im just gonna make this post short, since I have to make Macaroni Baked Cheese, for someone's BBQ :p

Anis invited me to her Doa Selamat+BBQ party tonight. Its to celebrate her Excellent A level result. Congrats babe! ILY!

Ohh I changed my blogskin, but I dont really like it as much as I did when I edited it. Im gonna change it if I have time.

Time flew so fast, its already the end of February. I havent submitted my HECAS, since the date of final submission had been extended to 15th March. I just havent made up my mind on the Choices thingy, mainly the Section C. I know, Im indecisive.

If you're wondering what I've been doing during my free time, the answer would obviously be, Internet. HAHA. Thank god I have internet with me so I wouldnt be 'that' bored. But I admit at times I would be bored of this so called excellent technology.

Nothing much to say anymore, I gotta go make the Macaroni. Some random pictures, enjoy :)

Excitement

2009-01-30T22:56:00.004+08:00

Everyone is going to MD tomorrow. See you guys tomorrow! Im so excited to meet everyone tomorrow, I miss you all :) and also the teachers.

Oh and to those who were asking about my result, all I can say is that its not satisfying, just my usual average result. Im gonna try again this June.

To friends who got A's and B's, Congrats people :D To those who didnt, dont worry, we can try again right?? Thanks for those who congratulate me yesterday, and also today. Thanks for making me feel better. I really appreciate it.

Im tired now, just got back from the hospital, again. I have work before that, and standing for 4 hours straight without even sitting down. Thanks Gkah for helping me with the stocks! You're the best babe!

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I have a new driver, named Haziqah, a.k.a Gixe! HAHA. Nada wah, she got her license sudah, and she's driving! OMG. Im so jealous.

P.S: Aida, I need your cupcakes again, really badly! And I am very fond of seeing TWO persons tomorrow *wink2* :p

Tagged by Sahmin kambang.

2009-01-16T22:39:00.004+08:00

1) Do you think you're hot?
= Honestly? Sometimes. :p

2) Upload a favourite picture of you

3) Why do you like that picture?
= Cuz I look very simple in that picture. Though its actually taken late night in Singapore last December, after a very long shopping day :)

4) When was the last time you ate pizza?
= 4th January 2009. Aida's dad bought it for us on our way back home from Anis' house.

5) The last song you listened to?
= Paramore-Decode

6) What are you doing right now besides this?
= Reading people's blogs.

7) What name would you prefer besides yours?
= I couldnt think of any other name besides my real name. I like my name, though sometimes I dont. haha

8) tag 5 people
1. Zierah Chantique
2. Zakwan
3. Moon
4. Atillah
5. Madd

9) who is number 1?
= My other half. Haha eksen ku. She's my bestfriend for almost 7 years now :)

10) number 2 is having a relationship with who?
= With Lyla. They're such a sweet couple :)

11) say something about number 5?
= He's such an ass. Haha jks :p He's a nice crazy friend to talk to :)

12) how about number 4?
= My lovely UK trip roommate! She also a crazy mate, when it comes to annoying people. haha remember the part when you opened all the windows when the snow falls just to make me feel cold? good times :)

13) who is number 3?
= My partner in crime, my roommate, my Eas classmate. She's like my most respectable older sister. and also, the 'Muslimah' Model! HAHAHA

2009 came with a smile :)

2009-01-02T12:53:00.007+08:00

Sorry for the lack of update people :)

Just a quick update.

My 18th Birthday Party was held at the Holiday Lodge Hotel, Jerudong on the 28th december 2008. I didnt invite all of my friends as I dont know how to contact them. And I dont have time to organise it properly, so im sorry friends. I invited most of my ex classmates since we havent had our reunion for almost a year. The party went well (no one knows whats behind the scene haha xp). I just wanna thank the people who came (do not thank me back) and most importantly the band. They performed really well, credits to the singers, Wazini and Fyda, not to forget the band members :) I never expected that they sang the songs i Loved since Waz told me the songs would be a surprise. Once again, thanks for making me smile all night long.

Also, I sat for my law test last wednesday, it was okay. I need to know my result now!

Lastly,

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!

may we all have a better year this year filled with happiness and success :)

The Picnic

2008-12-22T11:31:00.001+08:00

Yesterday I joined the ICT Club Picnic outing at Berakas Beach. At first I thought that it would be awkward since I’m the only AE student whilst the others are my juniors. I don’t know any of them except for Azzie, Sahmin, Aida and Ain. I arrived there around 8am, earlier than Aida. The teacher came a bit late so the activity only started when she came. First, the welcoming speech by Teacher Fina. She suddenly asked who's moving to Katok and who stays in MD. I couldn’t stop laughing cuz I’m not moving nor staying. Then the speech by the ICT Club President which is Azzie, very short but it was okay :)

The YDP, Hakim led the warming up session and most of us couldn’t be so serious haha. After the warming up session we were asked to be in our groups for the Ice Breaking Session. I’m in the RED group with Aida, Fatin, Azim, Rifdi and Adly. We were asked to perform something, singing, dancing, acting or anything. We didn’t prepare anything for the performance. We chose to dance and act to the song 'Jamilah Jamidong'. Haha seriously, I don’t know the lyrics except for the chorus part. So when we were on 'stage' we were completely clueless and stiff. All we do is laugh and only act during the chorus. In the end everyone wanted us to do it again! OMG it was so embarrassing. We chose to perform the song Puspa by ST12 since we don’t have any nice songs on our phones. Oh God, this song, Haha it was really funny how we acted. Macam nda menjadi wah. I bet we're the worst group haha. The Blue team won and the Green team came second. Oh btw, we named our group Hot N Spicy! I realised during the discussion our group was the LOUDEST with us laughing and being hilarious all the time. Teacher Fina even said, "Lawa video clip kamu ah" after we performed.

After that it was Makan time and before that Azzie said, "Eh kamu, ada urg belated birthday ne, Si Zaimah!" OMG I was like, nooo malu kuu hahah. Everyone sang Happy Birthday to me. I’m so touched =S Thanks everyone. Even though I don’t know you guys, but still, thanks :) Teacher Fina asked me during Makan time, "Brapa tah umur mu ne Zaimah?" and I said eighteen. Aida started to say all these annoying stuffs, cari pasal wah haha.

Next were the Balloon Defense and Balloon Fight Session. This part I love the Most! The teams were given 5 balloons each and they have to protect the balloon from being stolen by other groups. Teams also have to steal balloon from other teams. Teams can choose to throw the balloons to other people or just keep it. The AJK's stayed in the middle just to distract the teams by throwing balloons at them. At first it was only me who protect the balloons while the others stole the balloons. And people kept on throwing balloons at me! I was wet and dirty! Then someone threw balloon at me but inda pacah, rupanya si Hakim haha. Gila eh sakit bah my back! In the end Me, Azim, Aida and Fatin gathered around and protected our balloons while Adly and Rifdi stole balloons. Guess who won the challenge? US, the RED TEAM!! HAHA. After that it was balloon fight where everyone gathered in a circle and we can throw balloons on anyone. That was fun, too bad nobody took the pictures.

The Sandcastle Challenge was next and we went down to the beach around 12pm! Imagine how hot it was. But we didn’t care. We were given 30mins to create something and our group made a heart shape :D In the end it wasn’t even Sandcastle competition when everyone had a sand and water fight! No one was clean, well only some, including si Azim! Haha.

Went back upstairs since we’re kind of dehydrated. I changed clothes and then we sat in a group, telling stories and just relaxing, with snacks of course. And also taking pictures. They were really cool, I mean, friendly. I didn’t expect it to turn out like this, so I’m glad I came :D Azzie, Aida and I took a walk around the area and we discovered a beautiful scene to take pictures. After that changed clothes again and sat at the bench and just hanging out. I went back home at 3pm. And I’m Tanned. Haha shites.

Overall, I really had a lot of fun despite the fact that I don’t know anyone at first. But in the end it turned out well cuz they were all easy to talk to :D Thanks everyone for the great memories.

Click here for the pictures :D

Birthday Photos from the Friends

2008-12-17T16:54:00.001+08:00

I didnt know Aida took this picture of me with the Cupcakes she made yesterday! And I love this picture the most haha.

But I hate this picture she took during breakfast before I put on any makeups and I was still with my messy hair haha.

And some friends made a post on wishing me Happy Birthday with more Hideous pictures! You guys are soo mean! Hahaha. Not to mention that they exposed my full name and nicknames. Its okay when they put my name "Siti Nurzaimah Zaitunah binti Haji Zaim" but its not okay when they said, "ETON"! It was Moon who created that nickname cuz she was mad at me for calling her "Munah" haha. So these are the pictures they posted.

MADD

AZZIE

GKAH

BUT I do LOVE this picture Gkah posted except the picture while I was eating haha.

My 18th Birthday!

2008-12-16T23:44:00.005+08:00

Its my Eighteenth BIRTHDAY today. Yeay! Haha im so excited of being eighteen, I dont know why. I dont really wanna be this old but since most of my friends were already 18 or over 18 I feel alienated. They keep on calling me 'too young' and 'not eligible' for this and that and whatever. SO NOW IM OFFICIALLY eighteen! Like people said, "You're LEGAL now!"

So my birthday, I was still awake until 1.30-ish due to the calls and messages. Syirah slept over last night, she was the first one to wish me Happy Birthday! I love you cousin :p Aida called me 7 minutes before 12 and claimed that she wanna be the first to wish me but sadly she wasnt the first one. Syirah and Aida had this kind of 'fight' to be the first to greet me haha. And then I was online on MSN, but due to the stupid connection last night I did not receive some birthday greetings. Im sorry guys. Thanks for the greet anyway.

Early in the morning, Gkah came to my house while I was in the bathroom. She came in and shouted "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!". She thought it was me on the bed and but it was actually Syirah. Haha bari malu eh Gkah. haha. Aida came later and Anis was last. They all looked so suspicious but they wont tell me about it. I went out of the room for a while and when I came back Aida gave this card which has their greetings for me, and it was PINK! I love it haha. Thanks Babes! I love you! I asked them to go down with me for breakfast and as soon as I turned back they surprised me with this large box with cupcakes and candles inside it! Aida made the cupcakes. Thanks Aida, it was really beautiful and delicious.

We went to Gadong around 11.30 and bought the movie tickets and then we went to the K-Box. We sang 5 songs I think, nostalgic songs, including Hero. haha :p Aida accidentally clicked on this really hard to sing Malay song and we blamed her for that! haha. After K-Box, we went to find dresses. I tried on a dress and I didnt like it. Had a drink at Chill and saw Zatty my History classmate. I saw Fakhri, Azriah and Safwan too, and a lot of MD-ians. Oh yeah at Chill, we ordered drinks just because of the 'FANCY' names and their drinks all tasted awful except for mine which is PINK and really nyaman haha.

Syirah then decided not to join us for the movies so I invited Mad to watch the movie with us cuz I saw him earlier. He agreed after we forced him to. So I ended up watching 'The Day The Earth Stood Still' with the Buttchezz and Mad who sat beside me being annoying all the time talking about silly stuffs. You're definitely annoying as usual Mad. He went window shopping with us girls and acted like a gay guy. No offence Mad but you're so gay.

We grabbed something to eat and then Gkah went to watch Twilight with her boyfriend. So the three of us was egg-ing and then Anis went home. Went to Chill again to kidnap Syirah and had another Dress window shopping. I tried on a dress again and I hate it haha. Then waited for Syirah's driver to pick us up for 20 minutes and then home.

After that we had to send Aida to her house and bought some foods for the Doa Selamat. Gkah came to get her stuffs in my room and we had a chat together about something :p

Overall, I had a blast this year with an unexpected outing.

Thanks everyone for the greet. I dont think I could list everyone's name here. Im sorry. Anyway, I Love you all people! Thanks for making my day and turning my dull birthday to a blast birthday! I wish you guys well too :D

Legal

2008-12-15T22:50:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is my 18th BIRTHDAY!

Oh wait, its not tomorrow its gonna be in 1 hour! haha :D

Finally, im gonna be 'LEGAL'.

Happy Birthday Dude.

2008-12-06T19:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
ABBY DHAMARA

He's my ex classmate in SMSHasan for two years. But we only got really close after O Levels. Haha. He's a nice guy actually, always been a good listener to me. He's being mean to me this year by calling me 'Alai' in front of everyone in MD. How humiliating. I forgot how it all started. Nevermind. Anyways, Have a blast Dude. When's the party? You asked about my birthday party but you never really had a Party for us all. :p

He's gonna kill me for posting this picture here. He hates this picture! Haha this picture was taken during Azzie's 19th Birthday in July this year. He hates this picture cuz Busted bah ia makan Longan banyak. Haha :p Sorry dude. Btw, can you sing that song again, with that 'attitude'? haha I bet everyone remembered how he sang and dance to this one song :p

Singapore

2008-12-02T20:28:00.002+08:00

Im going to Singapore early in the morning tomorrow. But I'll be back the next day. Sorry for the lack of update people. Been busy with unplanned outings :) Before I go, check out this picture I found in Azzie's room today. I bet the two Guys will recognise their 'Childhood' faces :p But its not that clear though.

Twenty Sixth November.

2008-11-26T12:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY JIRAH!

My supposed-to-be-aunt.

Haha she's only 16 but she's wayy taller than me. Eh baru 16 kah? Kanak2 masih. haha. Bah enjoy your birthday. Dont forget to belanja aku :p Btw sorry aku grab pictures from your blog :p

Back from Hiatus

2008-11-25T14:26:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY
THARWANA HARUN

She's my ELIT classmate and I think she's the youngest in our class. Wana you're the COOLEST ELIT Classmate! haha. Im gonna miss your laugh and your jokes after this. I remembered that the class would be so dull without you around. Have a blast yeah :) You're soo young! I hate you for that but Im gonna miss you! :p

Tagged by AIDA

Six Random Things About Me

I am described as 'penyamal'
I can be happy one second and be cranky the next second.
Teary when im angry.
Annoying
Keeping a lot of things to myself.
Im an easy-going person.

Six Random Things I Like

Si Hero.
Romanticism
Writings & Poems
Shopping and going out all day
Tall and Tough guys.
Cold weather.

Six Random Things I Don't Like

People annoying me when Im not in the mood.
Heavy rainfall.
People being 'penyibuk' on my life.
Guys who doesnt make their first move eventhough they wanted to.
People talking on my back but being nice in front of me.
Vegetables.

Six Quirky Things About Me

Im a Showoff.
I get bitchy when I didnt quite get what I want.
I tend to force people to do something if I want to.
Im always in a rush without thinking of the consequences.
I look down on some people at times, only if they did something bad to me.
Im a Believer.

Six Things That Make Me Happy

Si hero's comments! ;P
My close friends. The Buttchezz, GMMA and more.
Vacations!
Internet.
Success.
Cheese.

I TAGGED EVERYONE ON MY LIST, again..

The Fool

2008-11-19T18:06:00.003+08:00

It shouldnt have even started. I was such a fool to believe I could start it. I should already knew it wasnt what I expected it to be. I shouldnt have even believe it when my friends told me things about him. I was just so foolishly over reacted. I hate it when this happens all over again.

Both blogs would be on hiatus for a few days. Until I got my confidence back.

I never felt this way
How do you give me so much pleasure,
cause me so much pain,
'Cause when I think
I'm taking more than would a fool
I start fallin'
back in love with you.

Tagged by Azzah and Madd

2008-11-19T15:43:00.003+08:00

1. Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right now.
2. Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair... just take a picture.
3. Post that picture with NO editing.
4. Post these instruction with your picture.
5. Tag 5 people to do this.

And now I tagged everyone on my links! :)

Smiles :)

2008-11-17T18:52:00.003+08:00

My day starts off very badly. Because of the Elit exam. I dont want to mention it. But then my day turned better :) Thanks to....everyone! :) Im too lazy to blog here. I blogged on my multiply. Just check it there.

Bah thats all, i need to rest, and dream :) I have a feeling my dream would be so wonderful tonight :p

Humans and Civilisation

2008-11-16T00:47:00.003+08:00

Some people just made such a big deal of the littlest thing people did to them. I dont understand why. Okay I wasnt suppose to blog about this but I just wanna be on the side of my bestfriend. Babe, I dont think you started all that 'childish' thing dont you? People talked about you behind your back too right. But you never made such a big fuss of it and you never bothered to post it up on your blog. Now thats what I would prefer to call, 'Civilised' attitude. I bet people posted it on their blogs just because they wanted people to tag them and agree with them on their tagboards in order to gain their so-called popularity. I understand, they're so 'SAKAI' in experiencing this college life but eventually they'll get bored sometime. Its so funny. I thought and believed that educated people should be 'civilised' but I was so wrong. All those wars on the internet world are just so childish for me. I dont know any other way to describe it. Im used to people bitching about each other and now I know most people in my batch would probably think its childish too right. Friends, we should have some sympathies for our poor juniors that's gonna live our college life for another year. They're still not used to it :)

P.S: To those who felt offended by the things I just wrote, their typical reaction would be, "She's just jealous cuz im so popular and im so astonishing. *Yuck*

Okay back to me, I am feeling better (maybe). Except that I am being so cautious and paranoid that its affecting my mood. Im gonna watch the continuation of Gossip Girl season 2 now. Dont worry, I wont neglect my revision for ELIT paper 6 on Monday which is tomorrow. Talking about Gossip Girl, its where it all started haha ;p

Miserable

2008-11-15T13:37:00.002+08:00

Aida you know that my recent posts are all addressed to you right. I did that just to annoy you cuz I know you 'maybe' like him. You got me in serious trouble right now. Haha. Everything happened accidentally.

This morning I came to school again for the Socio extra class. I came early but Aida was nowhere to be seen. So I sat alone in the admin block waiting for her and Aneez. Aneez came late so both of us came in late for Socio extra class. We were hesitated to go in at first. Cuz we were afraid the class would be full. Thankfully, there were 2 empty seats at the back. Yeay :) Aneez and I have been so loud during the class. I dont know whether the people could hear us. But it was so embarassing haha.

Both Aneez and Aida annoyed me today. Cuz of something that happened today. I feel so humiliated. I dont know why. Its not that something funny happened to me. But I just felt so moody today. Maybe its because I slept late last night after gossiping with Azzie on the phone for an hour. I looked miserable. I feel miserable. I dont know whether they realised that. I feel like crying cuz Im so scared :(

I just got back from lunch and from the boutique. I went there to alter my dresses. I just love the service they gave me. Thats why I love to go to that boutique. But still, that thing still bothers me. I dont know why I have been that foolish. I just need someone to make me feel better. I dont blame that person but I just dont know what to do in this situation. I am so miserable.

No offence.

2008-11-14T22:05:00.003+08:00

I hate it when people take things seriously. You all know what kind of person I am. I could just say 'I Hate You' in front of your face but I never meant it. Some people did take things seriously. For example the person that I often called 'Major Loser'. Her post made me realised that she cared whenever I called her that. I hate it when I made people offended when I said something. I know people said there's limits when we made jokes. But sometimes I just cant control the things that came out of my mouth.

Sometimes I felt that I cared too much for others' feelings but how about mine? They never cared. Although I seem that I dont care or I might 'follow' all of your commands but I actually did care and feel offended. It happened all the time. Im just so sick of all that. I felt like saying that to people's face but I just couldnt cuz I still have some values for other people. But they only cared about themselves, pretending to be concern in front of me but behind my back? Do you seriously think Im a puppet and too gullible for you to exploit? All you guys do is just protecting your own interests and your own reputation in front of everyone else. What do you think I am? Do you think I dont have my own prides?

Oh well thats just it. Sorry, Im just a bit Emo. Sorry Aida, Im not addressing this post to you, except the Major Loser part :p Its actually for general readers. Seriously, not you babe. :) I just felt a bit guilty to you.

P.S: Si Moon BUSTED! Kedapatan wah she bought Cheesy Fries at Tanjung Bunut Mall after Elit Exam this afternoon. She tried to hide from me lagi tu. HAHA.

I got this survey from Gixe

2008-11-14T21:55:00.003+08:00

On a scale from one to ten, how tired are you?

♥ 6. I am not that tired. Its just that my brain haven’t rested for a while :)

What is the relationship between you & the last person you texted?

♥ We’re bestfriends for life although I’ve just known her for almost 2 years :)

What did you do last night?

♥ I was on Pet Society, Revising for King Lear and David Copperfield, watching TV.

Anything good/exciting happen to you lately

♥ Oh yes. The EXAMS. Its so exciting! Urgh NOT.

What did you last eat?

♥ Chicken and Chips.

If you could've chosen the color of the sky, what color would it be?

♥ Green.

Are you on any kind of messenger right now?

♥ I am on MSN Messenger.

If so, is anyone talking to you?

♥ Azzie and Aida but I got disconnected in all of a sudden.

Do you feel like you need to brush your teeth right now?

♥ Nope, I just did.

What was the last song you listened to?

♥ Where Are You by Justin and Natalie.

Looking forward to anything in the near future/future?

♥ YES. I am looking forward for the end of my A Levels and also the Holidays. But not really, cuz I gonna miss College L

What color is your cell phone?

♥ Black and Silver.

Are you still in school or are you graduated?

♥ In College, Well, its gonna end soon anyway.

About how many comments does your myspace have?

♥ I couldn’t recall. I never bothered.

Do you really care about this years election?

♥ YES I am. Its just so exciting to follow up the developments of the election.

Anything sore/hurt right now?

♥ Not really, just the annoying mosquito bites!

When was the last time you yelled at someone?

♥ A few hours ago. To my little sister.

What's bothering you right now?

♥ My eating disorder, the UCAS application and the Scholarship requirements.

Do you have any pets? If so, what are they and what are their names?

♥ There are a few cats at my house, 5 probably. But they’re not my pets. I have a pet on petsociety though.

Anything stuck in your teeth?

♥ Nothing, I did say I’ve brushed my teeth earlier.

What is your favorite TV show?

♥ ANTM, Grey’s Anatomy, Desperate Housewives, Moment of Truth.

Does anyone like/love you?

♥ I don’t know. I hope someone did like/love me. LOL.

What was/is your worst subject in school?

♥ Probably History. Or maybe EAS.

Do you like the feeling of a body part falling asleep?

♥ At times. But I have difficulties to sleep.

Have you ever tried dog or cat food? If so, what was your opinion?

♥ Im not a dog or a cat. And Im not that stupid to eat Animal food.

Who made dinner last night?

♥ I don’t eat dinner.

How many profile views do you have on FS?

♥ Why should I care?

Do you think people make too big of a deal of some stuff on FS ?

♥ Yes. Its so lame.

Who would you like to see right now?

♥ AJ Rafael! Haha.

Is Global warming happening?

♥ Mr. Simmonds said its not Happening.

How's the weather today?

♥ I thought it would be very hot today so I didn’t bring my jacket to the exam but then I was shivering during the exam. Shites!

Do you have any plans for today? If so, what are they?

♥ The day would end in just a few hours so I guess Im just gonna sleep.

What can your hear right now?

♥ The sounds from the TV. People speaking in Cantonese.

Do you really care what people think about you?

♥ I said I didn’t but I actually did. Im always insecure and tried my best to act my best in front of people.

How's your hair right now?

♥ Ponytailed

Do you dislike/hate anyone?

♥ Honestly, yes. I'm just an imperfect human. There are times I would actually felt that I hate someone.

What is the most expensive thing anyone has ever bought you?

♥ I don’t know. There’s so many to recall.

Where will be your next vacation?

♥ I don’t know.

How long do you shower for?

♥ 30 mins to 1 hour. But in the case of emergency, 10 mins.

How do you make your money?

♥ By people giving me money.

Anything exciting happening last weekend?

♥ Nothing, just the barbeque.

Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off?

♥ Again, AJ Rafael.

Are you there for your friends?

♥ All the time.

Are you a forgiving person?
♥ Yes.

Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?

♥ Haven’t talked to him since April. Although we see each other almost everyday.

and, you are tagging?

Happy Birthday Ayu!

2008-11-13T11:56:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY
NUR AYUNI HAJI MATDON a.k.a AYU

May God bless you and may all your wish come true. I've known you for 4 years now and lately we're sort of breaking apart, I mean, our friendship. But you know you're still my bestfriend too. You've been busy with your friends and studies and I've been busy with exams too so we barely seen each other at school. Me and Azzie felt bad for not planning to celebrate your birthday earlier. Cuz both of us have been so busy too and since you're always in the bungalow its always hard for us to make an 'appointment' with you. Anyway, I wish you'll have a blast with your friends and family today cuz even we didnt celebrate it with you, you always have your other friends to celebrate it with you right? I promise I'll give you your present before the school holidays, after I finished my exams.

I was actually planning to go to school today to give Ayu some chocolates but I woke up feeling sick. I've been feeling sick and moody after the exams yesterday actually. Maybe even my friends realised how moody I was last night. Sorry friends, I told you guys I was going to school today but I didnt.

I just remembered its someone's birthday too today. But I am not gonna wish him well. Haha sorry, you're just not a friend :) Do you want me to post his picture here? I dont think you want to haha.

11.11.08, such a lucky day.

2008-11-11T18:22:00.004+08:00

Its 11.11.2008 today. There's a UK Education Exhibition Fair at the Centrepoint Hotel Gadong. I went there with Aida, picked her up from her house then arrived there around 1.15. We saw a lot of MD-ians there, of course most of them are my friends. At first we saw si 'Hot' and Aida looked like she's gonna faint (Lol, Im just exaggerating). The first University we 'visited' was the School Of Oriental and African Studies (SOAS). So while waiting...

Aida: OMG Zaiiiii!!!!!!
Me: Knapa? What? Apakan? Si Hot kah?
Aida: Abggggggg!!!
Me: *turned back* Who? Where?

Haha so I turned back to the front being completely speechless when I saw him. Seriously, I swear I didnt expect to bump into him today and I never even thought of him at all for today. Thats why people often said, "Things happen when we least expect it". Haha so I just cant keep my eyes of him and I know he saw me. I feel like talking to him and ask what course he is interested although I already knew. He was queueing at the Queen's University of Belfast so as soon as I finished I went straight there as I am very fond of that University too. After that we queued at the University of Sheffield but due to my starving we decided to just take the prospectus and went for something to eat. We ate at Jollibee and just before I finished my meal I saw Abg passing by and thats the last time I saw him. Both of us went to the Mall for some icecream but we ended up window shopping for dresses and shoes. Around 3.30 we decided to go back to the centrepoint and we managed to see the representatives from University of Teeside, York University, Newcastle University and University of East Anglia. By that time it was already 5 so we went to Coffee Bean and then home. Aida stayed and we as usual had our 'Girl Talk' in my room. Her mum picked her up just now and here I am blogging and revising.

And not to mention that Some people did cut the queues and it pisses me off. Seriously, all of them should be educated enough since they are applying for universities but then some of them are uncivilised! I came there first but when I turned back for a moment there she was besides me and trying to be in front of me. I told Aida that I would yell at people who did that to me but thank God I was in a very good mood at that time but I did cursed her. I said to Aida, "Mati tah kau ehh bini2". I think she heard me and realised that I am very pissed so she went away. Haha. I am very satisfied.

So basically, the typical requirements for Social Sciences and Sociology is ABB, AAB, BBC and BCC/CCC. I gotta work hard. I am actually interested in Joint Degrees/Honours. So there are few choices such as Sociology and Anthropology, Sociology and Psychology, Sociology and Politics, Sociology and Social Policy, Sociology and History, etc. I might be interested in Literature as well but Im still indecisive.

Im having two exams tomorrow. Both are my favourite subjects although it is hard and I hate both papers. Just wish me luck and pray for me. Its gonna be hectic.

I am blabbing

2008-11-10T19:36:00.003+08:00

I told Aida that I am in desperate need for shopping. I really am. Some people might be addicted to morphine, cocaine or whatever drug it is. But I am addicted to shopping. I have a plan in mind which is to fly to Singapore on a Sunday morning and went back on the same day, midnight. Of course, as soon as I finished my exams. Haha that is my advanced birthday wish. But I dont think I can go :( cuz I have spend a lot this year and it would be too much to ask for anything else such as this although I think I deserve it :p and another thing I told Aida is that in just a few months things changed so the Buttchezz's plan for this December might not happen. Sorry babes, Im just so not in the mood for it. You know what I meant right. Dont ask why. I just need to get over it. Oh FYI to readers who dont know what the hell Im talking about, I am not EMO and this is not because of some stupid Love thing. Well, maybe just a tiny little bit :p But Bitchily (seriously), I need to update my wardrobe and jewellery box as well as shoe shelf. LOL. This post is getting a little bit Girly and Lame now. I better stop.

Oooh btw I love these Victoria's Secret bags *hint2*. I got it from http://www.shop-at-sarahs.blogspot.com/. You guys know where to get it ;)

The Red Devils :)

2008-11-09T13:01:00.005+08:00

Man U Lost. Fcuk Haha. Well, they can do better next time :)

Just a quick post. I just wanna show this picture that I really love. Its a picture of the newly married couple Ashraf Sinclair and Bunga Citra Lestari. I love her dress haha. Thats why Im posting it here. She's gorgeous and He is super hot. But Im only interested in her dress. I Love it.

Here I am

2008-11-08T18:58:00.002+08:00

I dont know why i feel sad when I heard this girl sang the song. Just play the video and hear her sing. Nevermind the video, just listen to it :)

I can smell the barbeque. Gotta go now :) The Barbeque chickens are waiting for me :p

head over heels :)

2008-11-08T16:40:00.004+08:00

I have so many things in mind to share but i dont know where to start. Well, I'll just describe about my Saturday first =) Today Religion was the topic for the Socio extra class. I texted Aneez last night around 11.40pm asking whether she's coming or not. We both agreed that we're not fond of 'Religion' topic as its a huge topic that 'we' never really understood. Lol. So we dediced to come to school to study 'Julius Caesar' and 'A View From The Bridge' but we would not enter the extra class. I came early and hung out with Azzie and Sahmin as well as their friends. I was planning to hide from my teachers as I dont want them to ask me about the exams. I would be completely speechless if they asked me about the exams. PS 5, Aneez came a bit late, Me and Aida had our breakfast. Then From 8.45 Aneez and I were stucked inside the library, revising, researching and went online *Typical us* :) A humiliating thing happened.

A: Zai, what do you think of him? Is he hot?
Z: Hmm, I dont think so. He looks a bit like Rafi Ahmad though. But I think he's just average.
A: *shouting/high pitched* Average? what?
Z: Shhhhhh........bari malu eh.
*people around us were staring at us and we just laughed and tried to act natural as if nothing happened.*

Okay that was lame..

So then its 12pm and Aida, Aneez and I were waiting to be picked up until I saw that girl, who always stared at me, standing alone, without her guy. All of a sudden Aida panicked when she saw her Ex with his 'girl'. Aneez wanted to see how she looked like so we went down to the dining the same way as they were going. We ended up walking exactly in front of them and act like complete bitches. Lol. Mum picked me up and its the end of my Saturday with the babes.

Last Tuesday I went to HRD for an appointment on the scholarship application. I was actually not in the mood and a bit mad when I had to wait there for an hour because of some stupid person who took 2 hours to finish her discussion when it should only last for not more than half an hour. The counsellor suggested some universities in UK and Australia for me to choose. Before I go she suggested that I make an appointment with Eric Manning from Goldsmiths University, University Of London on Thursday after I finished my Elit exam. I agreed and went there on Thursday. The representative was very kind and nice, I loved the way he explained everything to me clearly until I had no questions to ask to him. So basically it went well :)

Yesterday I had my Sociology paper 1 exam and thankfully all the targeted questions came out. Bazilah, my BFF from the UK trip and I were happy with it. My sister picked me up and we went to Maktab Sains to watch my lil brother and lil sister playing football and Netball. After that we picked up my mum and went back to MS to pick up my siblings. Went to SKH Kiulap but it was too crowded so we went to the Mall to eat and shoppping for tonight's Barbeque :) Maklong picked me up from the Mall cuz she needed me to accompany her to the airport and then to buy my sister's birthday present at Tanjung Bunut Mall. I was still wearing my school uniform at that time, 9.15pm. Then as I got back home, Syirah was there so we had a lil bit of girl talk. I decided to take my shower around 10pm. I have just finished my bath, still in the towel and talking to Syirah about some ghost stories when the light suddenly went off! Me and Syirah's typical reaction would be screaming our guts out and run downstairs like crazy. But last night we didnt but it was obvious we were in complete terror. Syirah and I panicked but remained muted and ran downstairs like crazy as always. Lol. She wouldnt let go off me and I can feel that she was frightened haha. It was really stupid haha cuz it happened when I have just finished my shower.

Thats all for today. I am tired and sleepy. I just couldnt wait to eat some Pasta and Barbque chickens :p

"...Now I'm speechless, over the edge, I'm just breathless, I never thought that I'd catch this LOVE BUG again, Hopeless, head over heels, in the moment, I'd never thought that I'd get hit by this LOVE BUG again..."

OBAMA CAPTURES THE PRESIDENCY

2008-11-05T15:42:00.011+08:00

'Change has come to America' when the 47 year old Barack Obama became the First Black President of the United States, to be exact, the 44th President of the United States. Its quite predictable actually as he's the most suitable candidate for that position. I am very satisfied with the result and I just hoped that he meant everything he had said :p I guess the defeated Presidency Candidate, John McCain must be sober by now. He was boo-ed when he was giving his speech. I find that pretty hilarious actually :)

I am so into politics lately, don't know what went in to me. I am NOT a big fan of politics as I thought it has got nothing to do with my life. I've changed that mindset and I think its not that bad :)

English Literature Paper 3 tomorrow. Which is Poems : Songs Of Ourselves & Anthills of The Savannah. I am quite okay with that paper actually but I am not confident about my factual knowledge and analytical skills. Just wish me luck.

Today, I went to school to study with Aneez and this time, we really studied. Except that we were carried away at some point. I accidentally saw 'him' at the HEU this morning and I am extremely not happy with it. Haha cuz I need no distraction at this exam season.

HAPPY 12th BIRTHDAY TO ALAI NAZHIRAH,
My Annoying Youngest Sister.

You're an adult now so you better act like one. May God bless you :) I'll give you the presents later, after I finished this week's exam :)

I love it when AJ Rafael sang this song :) I am in Love with this Guy's voice! haha. (I hope he's reading this, and I know he will. Im a follower of his blog okayy :p)

http://ajrafael.blogspot.com/

and this is Miaarose :)

http://miaarose.net/

Just something to share, NOT being mean.

2008-11-04T23:57:00.004+08:00

I am thinking of shutting down my Friendster since I have moved to Facebook now. Been thinking about it for months until now. There's some reasons why I should and should not shut it down.

Why I Should:

Friendster has been polluted by P*KL*N disease.
I am sick of reading comments such as this "hy derz..ahahax..pmlsh ey knz bg cmmntz ar..dsar..ahahax..xpxp..nwy coe 4 da l8 wply.." (okay that was just some random comment I've just read)
Its getting duller and boring.
Most people have shut it down, moved to facebook/multiply/blogger.
It is LAME.
Its such a waste of time having Friendster and Facebook has better features to get connected with your friends.
Random and unknown people added each other just to get more friends.
Lame peoples are competing with each other in order to gain their so-called 'popularity' amongst girls/guys.
Most Bruneians (No Offence) are posting Lame pictures, for instance, pictures of them in the bathroom peeing or maybe poo? haha. and also half naked pictures which they thought would be a turn on for people but not people like me. haha.

Why I shouldn't:

Only Friendster can connect me with my old and distant friends as they do not have Facebook, etc.
Friendster has significant memories to me (before it was polluted).

So you decide for me cuz I am indecisive. Advise me on my Tagboard =)

Generation

2008-11-03T14:17:00.002+08:00

I'm sick of all this waiting
And people telling me what I should be
What if I'm not so crazy
Maybe you're the one that's wrong, not me
So what you gonna do, what you gonna say
When we're standing on top and do it our way
You say we got no future
You're living in the past
So listen up, that's my generation

hey ho, let's go!
It's going down tonight
hey ho, let's go!
We're gonna do it til we die
hey ho, let's go!
'Cause I, I, I got no reason to apologize
That's my generation

I don't need to say I'm sorry
I do what everybody wants to do
It's not so complicated
'Cause I know you want the same thing, too
So what you gonna do, what you gonna say
When we're standing on top and do it our way
You say we got no future
You're living in the past
So listen up, that's my generation

High School Musical 3

2008-11-02T00:12:00.005+08:00

I broke a nail. Shiit. Well, haha thats not my main point for blogging today. Anyway, as usual, im gonna write a long post this time, again. Let me share to you guys about my day.

Obviously, I've finished my HISTORY papers. As I said, History is now a History, get it? Nevermind you stinky heads. I decided to celebrate it. Well, not really. I was just in an urgent need to watch High School Musical 3 as SOMEONE bragged about how 'siuk' the movie was. Haha kambang.

So I went to school this morning for the Socio extra class. I was waiting for Aneez who said she'd come a bit late. I waited for her til the lesson ends and she replied my message around 11 ish. I was actually worried that something might happened to her when she didnt reply any of my messages nor miss calls but she actually 'overslept'. No comment eh. Haha. But thanks to Nina cuz she was with me all the time during the extra class :) I was alone again from 11am to 12pm as Azzie and Aida were having classes so I went to the pondok, then Library. I love it when the library was silent. But I kinda miss the moments I've spent there. I was actually studying Elit there. But I just couldnt concentrate to what I was reading. His images kept appearing on the book. Si Sahmin punya pasal tu, he kept on mentioning that guy's name since the early morning. Seriously, I was reading Julius Caesar study guide until Act 2 but all I can remember was the part where it said Calpurnia, Caesar's wife was 'infertile'. Haha how pathetic. I just cant get him out of my head.

Me, Aida, Azzie and Sahmin went to the mall, by foot. And as usual we were always crazy when it comes to crossing the road. haha. We just dont know how to. Met some MD-ians at the mall *how typical*. We ate at Dixy, 15 mins just before the movie started. Surprisingly we actually spent 15 mins to eat. Haha. Then during the movie me and Azzie cant stop laughing especially the romantic parts. Aida was crying all the time haha. Maybe it reminded us of our 'old times'? Haha. Si Sahmin was quiet, I barely heard his voice. And in contrast me and Azzie were kinda 'loud' haha. In the end of the movie, I actually cried because it reminded me of College days and Im just so sad that this is my last year in MD. I dont know, I just miss college days. Haha. Then we walked back to school and were being loud as we arrived there. Haha. Whatever.

Im gonna sleep now :)

Butterflies

2008-10-30T08:17:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY

MUHAMMAD HAJI TAIF
MAD for short, or Madhur :p

You're 19 now. Like I said, tua udah :p I just wanna wish you another year of laughter, joy and fun. and yeay, Im the first to wish you :)

EAS PAPER 1 later. Wish me luck, I am seriously nervous about it, im having butterflies in my tummy haha.

By the way..

THIS IS MY 100th POST! :)

Exam FEVER

2008-10-28T19:03:00.004+08:00

HISTORY PAPER 1 TOMORROW!

You have no idea how crazy I am feeling right now. Im all over the place. I have made revisions but I just feel its not enough. I am having Exam Fever and my nerves are breaking. I've been having stomach ache and headache all day. It happened all the time before Im having my exam.

Okay so Yesterday I received a call from Azzie who needs help from me. I was hesitated at first due to some reasons but then I decided to come to her house. The others couldnt come, just me and Syafiq. I came around 4.30 and had a little bit of 'Girl Talk' and Gossiping (Aida was jealous about it :p). Haha funny things happened and I do not wish to post it here, just read Azzie's multiply, she blogged about it haha. Look for the post 'Ghostbuster'. Get it now? Azzie made Sheperd's Pie for us and it was delicious :p Although she said its 'nda menjadi'. haha. Her mum treated us at KFC Sengkurong last night and sent us straight home after that.

My Conversation with Azzie last night after she sent me home,

Me: Zie, kambang bulu ku since aku balik rumah tadi ah.
Azzie: Ndangnya tu, Gusbum bah tu..
Me: Ah? Apa Gusbum?
Azzie: Goosebumps bah. HAHAHA

*And we laughed the whole night. Seriously, she's influenced with Indonesian accents haha.

When I tried to sleep last night, I have been imagining stuffs about our Ghostbuster mission that day. Haha. And my aunt said I was talking in my sleep (Mengigau bah). But seriously, its been giving me goosebumps.

I need some rest right now. Im gonna continue my intensive revision later. Wish me Luck people, especially because its History!

FLOOD

2008-10-26T19:50:00.005+08:00

It rained endlessly since last night. And it led to flood everywhere around my village. I'll just post the pictures taken along Tanjung Bunut/Kilanas and also at Mulaut House.

MD's Hari Raya Celebration

2008-10-26T17:31:00.004+08:00

My Saturday was great. The Hari Raya and Teacher's day celebration went well. Let the pictures do the talking. Oh yeah, I hate my hideous pictures, its because of my tudung! and yeah I look shocked in some pictures maybe due to the flash? haha. but I love some candid pictures though.

When they told me to dream on..

2008-10-24T20:47:00.003+08:00

I just finished talking to Azzie on the phone. Babe, relax... Dont be to emotional and most of all do not drive when you're having this kind of emotional problem. Haha.

I am going to school tomorrow for the Socio extra class which Im not very sure if it has been cancelled or not. Whatever, I just want to have fun tomorrow and I decided to wear baju kurung. Kan menyamak with the BE's whos celebrating Hari Raya and Teacher's Day tomorrow (AE's weren't invited). Aida begged me to come, with baju kurung and Azzie advised me to wear baju kurung too. But dont worry, im gonna wear the simplest baju fesyen I had in the bunch. Thats what I told Gkah and she replied,

"hahaha ur simplest is the overest for me!"

I am chatting with Gkah right now, but she disappeared in all of a sudden. Aida chatted to me for a while just now, and now she's off to baking. Azzie's baking too! Why do everyone have to bake at this time? Haha why dont you guys just buy the foods and bring it over tomorrow?

Oh btw this raya celebration at school reminds me of raya celebration last year. When everyone decorated their own tutor group's table and brought food, my tutor group was the worst of all! Haha can you imagine that our table was empty? no decorations, no foods. I ended up sitting with Gkah and Tqah's tutor group for a while but then flew off back to my empty table haha.

When I went random...

2008-10-23T22:49:00.008+08:00

I had the urge to write this, stimulated by a show I watched a few minutes ago. *This is the effect from my current obsession to AJ Rafael*

“…When you realised you like someone, you tend to run away from it. You keep on saying that it’s impossible and don’t want to admit it even to yourself. So when you see that person the next time it would be awkward and you tried to stay away from him. You kept a safe distance from that person and looking back at it you tend to regret your stupid action. Every gesture he made makes you secretly think he likes you too but you felt anxious when he’s with other girls. You wanted to say it to him but you were too troubled to say it thinking that you would lose that friendship, though you lose it afterall. You pretended to be all right in front of your friends and secretly weep when you’re all alone. And now here you are thinking of him every single moment you breathe and reminiscing to the memories you had with him, that night you had with him...”

The person who made my day

2008-10-23T14:39:00.004+08:00

Guess who came just now?

ANEEZ!

My bitch =P

Its her first time here at my place. And we hang out for a while :) She texted me this morning saying that she'll be at my place to return my notes this afternoon. When she said afternoon, I thought she meant late in the afternoon. I have just finished taking my shower at 2pm and photocopying some notes for her when my maid told me my friend was here! So I went out and asked her to come in for a while until I finished photocopying. Shamefully, she had to see my messy bedroom as I was too lazy to tidy it up :p Her first impression of my room was, "Lawa jua ni Zai, your room ah..Pink..." Haha. So whenever we said just for a while, we never really mean it. Haha. She was stucked in front of my laptop checking people's blogs while her dad was waiting for her outside! Haha she said its okay for her dad to wait 'just for a while'. God, she made my day! We were both wearing Pink shirts. How coincidence was that? But we didnt take pictures as we look too ~~hideous~~ astonishing with our messy hair. I havent got the time to do my hair okay as I have just finished my beauty shower :p

So yeah, she made my day. Thanks for coming babe. ILY=)

Btw, Congrats To Azzie for being a Legal Driver now by passing her Driving test this morning. Now you can drive safely :p and now I trust you to drive me anywhere HAHA.

OMFGDS

2008-10-22T19:09:00.008+08:00

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Okay that was censored. I was actually saying Oh My F*cking God Damn Sh*t. I wanted to blog about it here, but malas ku. Pfft. Maybe just a sneak peek of the real story. I was just checking out this blog, and I saw loads and loads of pictures of HIM there haha. My heart dropped when I saw his annoying pictures. I hate the fact that everyone knows everyone (This applied to Sahmin as well). Haha saja bah kan annoy him ;P But seriously, everyone knows everyone, its like, most MD-ians are connected.

Today, at school, we were acting so childish. I dont know what got into us. HAHA. I spent 2 hours with Aneez discussing about History, well not entirely ;p We waited for Gkah to finish her Maths exam and after that went to ICT Lab where I met Azzie who asked me to accompany her to meet my Babu at the HEU office. The first thing I saw in there was that girl and the guy. I'll just call the girl 'N' and the guy 'H'. Me and Azzie waited there and I felt uneasy with both of them there. When Azzie went in the office, I was standing alone there. I noticed that the girl was staring at me while the guy was busy talking to the teacher with his friends. Its not like im perasan or whatever but you can feel it when someone stares at you like that. I dont know why she was staring at me like that, maybe she knew the fact that I like that guy she's with? If only I could tell her something like this, "You know what? I dont care anymore. You can have him :)"

Haha so we spent an hour in the ICT Lab. Azzie and Sahmin was there doing their job, Me, Aneez and Gkah was there menyamak-ing. Abby came later, also menyamak-ing. HAHA. After that I spent time with the Buttchezz in an empty room. While waiting for us to be picked up, We went to the toilet. Me and Aneez was hiding from Gkah and Aida. HAHA. We were running around the school and never bumped into each other. Me and Aneez surrendered and stayed in front of the admin and the two other sluts came a few minutes later. HAHA it made me sweating like hell.

TO ABBY: NO, YOU DONT LOOK LIKE HANS ISAAC. Jangan Perasan HAHA.

Oh yeah, I added my coolest teacher ever when I was in form 4 and 5 on facebook. Guess what I found?

This....

When Im Bored

2008-10-21T19:24:00.003+08:00

I AM LAUGHING, and I just couldnt stop. I am alone and I am laughing. I must be losing my mind already by now. I actually overheard this song by Samsons and it reminded me of someone that people said looks a lot like the vocalist. Oh this reminds me of Abby who pissed me off when he blurted out about something to other people. Whatever, I just dont mind, its not that true anyway :) I forgive you guys for humiliating me in front of others.

So yesterday I went to school which was full of dramatic events (according to Gixe). Im too lazy to describe evrything cuz Gkah had blog about everything. There's this one thing I wanna share and Im guilty about it. Yesterday, Me and the three Buttchezz was sitting on the bench near the admin block where we can see everyone who walked past after the Maths exam finished when I saw the girl. I was staring at her as she walked by while the word 'slut' came out of my mouth and I didnt realised they guy I liked, who happens to be her Lover/Ex Boyfriend was just a few centimetres away. I didnt mean anything and I bet he saw the way I stared at her. I just feel guilty, she's innocent, and so do him. I was just feeling insecure.

Okay, so enough of that. Im going to school tomorrow. Just pray for God to give me the strength to Live until the exam ends. And I hope the Study Group tomorrow would be successful.

Btw, Moon's posts inspired me and she was right, we should support our own language by trying to use it more instead of using other languages such as English. This is what they called 'Pencemaran Bahasa'. Haha but im not as good as her in Malay. Im not that excellent in English either. Im just balanced. :)

To Gixe, Im sorry about your cats. Although I've never got the chance to meet him and I hate cats, I still felt sorry for it. Im also curious how both cats can die on the same day.

My Open House

2008-10-19T19:00:00.003+08:00

Thanks to the friends who came last night :) Aida, Azzie, Lyla, Zak, Mad, Syafiq, Hassanol and Azzie's brother. They made me happy despite the PMS im having right now :)

And sorry to all that weren't invited, I was gonna invite you guys yesterday morning but I was so busy that I totally forgot about it. I didnt even reply to most messages and when I checked my phone last night there were soo many missed calls and messages. So sorry, my bad =S

So last night, it turned out that everybody knows everyone. HAHA. What I meant is that my friends knows some of my families. How ironic. And I bet last night brought back some old memories to Azzie and Aida *wink2*, if you get what I mean :p

And friends, dont do that to me again okay. I mean, dont come without informing me, cuz I'll be out of control like last night haha.

When I Saw A Hot Guy...

2008-10-17T21:57:00.006+08:00

I havent blog about everything that happened this week. But Im just gonna blog about this particular thing happened this morning.

I had an early morning shower as I had to go for an early shopping with my aunt for the Open House tomorrow. So, we had breakfast and I was reading the newspaper when I saw the picture of Wu Chun and Charlene Choi in Brunei Airport. I wasnt very interested though I admit Wu Chun is Super Hot and Charlene Choi is very pretty. Oh FYI Im a big fan of Chinese, Hong Kong, Taiwan and Korean Dramas/Movies. So I can understand as well as speak a lil bit of cantonese and understand most Chinese/Taiwanese languages.

This morning, we went to the airport to send Wa Laki whos going to US. While sitting down at the bench, my sis said, "eh macam pelakun tadi ah yg dlm newspaper ah". Skali I saw Charlene Choi. I wasnt very interested. Then ada tia Wu Chun and when I saw him I was mesmerised! Trust me, he looks wayyy Hotter than in the pictures. I was just a few metres away from HIM! Haha. Skali my sis asked me to approach him to take pictures but I was hesitated. But then I feel like I seriously wanna take pictures with him when I saw groups of Chinese Girls (No Offence) chasing him! Sasak jua ku tuu... And I was wearing my tudung wah, and obviously people would know im a Malay when all the girls chasing him were Chinese. Im sure I wasnt the only one who thought about that. So I just forget about it and Im determined to see him at his own shop, Fitness Zone whenever He's back in Brunei. But Im still regretting my decision this morning, I shouldve just take pictures with him cause he's HOT. and also FYI Im so into Chinese look Guys, not all but some, like the Taiwanese Actors.

Btw I dont care whether you know him or Not. Just look at the pictures and tell me if you think he's not Hot. Cause you're gonna say he's hot when you saw the real Person.

P.S: How can a Bruneian-born Chinese looks that HOT? I wish there's other Bruneian-Born Chinese who looks that HOT. Haha again, No offence.

HOT Body, SWEET Smile and SUPER HOT innocent Look, Isnt that perfect?

Childhood Photographs

2008-10-13T19:26:00.003+08:00

I found these photos of my childhood. Haha. When I was small. Seriously, I used to be that little haha.

Melbourne, Australia [1997]

Family Photo taken at the studio, Can't recall when :)

Family from Mom's Side, I was that little baby girl ;)

London, England [1994]

My 6th Birthday & Aunt's Wedding [1996]

Euphonious VS Gloomy

2008-10-12T22:05:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE :)
wish you had the greatest birthday!

The family from Dad's side came over this morning, for beraya of course. So Mom asked me to bake the Macaroni Cheese again but this time its a bit different as I used cheddar cheese instead of the Mozarella Cheese for the toppings. And it burned a bit! I was afraid it would taste awful but thankfully it didn't. They loved it :)

So I came to Mom's house around 12pm and the people came a bit later. They left after a while and there''s still foods left so we called Babu Tini to come over. An unexpected drama happened. Someone rang the doorbell and when Dad opened the door, he was excited and shocked. Mom came later and was mesmerised for a moment. It was Mom's foster brother from KL who came. Its been 15 years says Mom. They talked for a while and Mom's foster brother came with his whole family. I never knew them but they know me :) It was such a happy smiling day. Babu Ami came at the same time. Kaka's friend came also in the afternoon. Nini Babu and Nini Damit, Uncle Hakim and Babu Amoi, and of course Zahah and Daniew was there too :)

Now, Im home. I wish I was home the whole evening! He came beraya tadi, here, at home, not Mom's house. Why didnt he go there? Nini told his family to go to Mom's house but they never came *sigh*. I wish they never told me he came this afternoon. It turned my whole smiling day to something worthless and cheerless. The guy Im talking about is the guy that I came to his house on the second day Raya. Remember? Whatever. I dont give a damn if you're still wondering who he is.

Im tired. Im off to sleep now.

P/S: I miss our childhood times and how I wish you're still my bestfriend/big brother. But most of all, I miss you.

PICTURES!

2008-10-12T00:08:00.011+08:00

VAINING WITH MY NOT-SO-LITTLE BELOVED COUSIN

THAT NOTE SAFWAN GAVE US :)

EAS CLASS FAREWELL PARTY

RAYA PICTURES

SLEEPOVER WITH THE BUTTCHEZZ

Saturday without School

2008-10-11T18:32:00.005+08:00

Why do two people who love each other had to pretend that they hate each other? Why don't people just say it when they love someone? Why do people have to use someone else just to make the person they love jealous? Well, that's life i guess. Life can be such a ~~bitch~~. I'm questioning this after watching Gossip Girl season 2. Or it does this applies to me as well?

Im having an open house next week. Im gonna invite you guys soon. Just wait for my message but if you think you are my 'friend' and you dont get that message it might be because I dont have your number or you're just not my friend:)

I was planning to go to school today but I woke up feeling sick and my nose bled seriously this afternoon. And now I'm drinking Pepsi when I shouldn't as Fizzy drinks made my nose bleeds. There's so much things going in my mind but I just couldn't bother thinking about it. :)

Last day of College

2008-10-10T20:53:00.006+08:00

Finally, Formal College lessons were over yesterday so here comes the A Level Exams. Yesterday was the last day of school. I woke up at 4 am to prepare the Baked Macaroni Cheese. My grandmother made it and I HELPED A LOT. I gave her the instructions and she cooks the sauce. Early in the morning I met Azzie, Aida and Sahmin. I prepared a portion of the Macaroni for my babes but Aneez and Gixe was absent. It’s such a loss because we didn’t get to spend times together. They said its Thursday so what’s the point of schooling when we wont have time to spend together due to the no PS on that day. They were wrong because most people don’t have lessons on that day including me. So I had a great time spent with Azzie, Aida, Moon and Remy. We had a farewell party for EAS class with Ms. Melissa Nourse. Half of the class came I guess. We had loads of fun and ate a lot! The baked macaroni cheese was for this party actually. Oh btw sorry Abby I forgot that you have PS block 3 and didn’t invited you to the party. So sorry.

After Break, I was Crazy-ing with Azzie, Moon and Remy. We had a ‘situation’ in the library and we ran away outside. HAHA. Lunch time, Ayen, My History classmate picked me and Athirah up around 11.50am as we’re going to Ms. Izan’s house for a Doa Selamat open house for her History U6 students. Our actual plan was to meet the others at the Gym parking area. Diyana came but the others were still missing. Safwan said that they still have this ‘makan2’ in front of the library. We waited there until 12.15 then Fakhri called. He said they were at the Post Office Mata2. I was like…Whaaaatt?? We were supposed to meet at the gym juaa! So we and Diyana went straight there lah, trying to find the post office but we ended up arriving at Ms Izan’s house tarus. HAHA so I told Fakhri to go straight there. We were the first ones to arrive then came Safwan and Muiz’s group. Ms. Izan’s other students were there too. Well, I know some of them. HAHA. Ms. Izan’s nephew read the Doa Selamat. We stayed there until around 2.20pm. The surrounding was filled with laughter and happiness that I need during the last day of school. I’m so gonna miss all of this. We had to go back to school early as Mar’s dad was picking her up at 2.30. So went back with Ayen the driver as well as Mar and Athirah.

Thanks to Ayen for the lift ;) She ‘dumped’ us in front of the library and I walked to the locker to get all of my stuffs. And guess who was there too?! That guy, Si H wah, and the girl *roll eyes*. Only God knows how I felt at that moment. I was pissed and confused as well as nervous at that time. Haha I didn’t realise that it was obvious I was ~~jealous~~ and pissed because you can hear the banging sounds while I’m getting my stuffs out from the locker. Do you get me? Aku ampas2 kan barang wah yatah kedangaran bising ah macam obvious aku marah at that time! I had to let it out so I called Aida, on my way to Dining and let everything out at her. I went home at 3 and get ready to go to Gixe’s open house at Lugu with Aida. Aida’s mum sent her to my house and my sister sent us to Lugu. That night, went to Nini Babu’s and a few steps after we got out of the car we witness a CAR ACCIDENT that caused me Major Headache. I wish not to mention about it. Why do all things happen at the same day? I was so tired and fell asleep when everyone was still gathering at Nini Babu’s.

Oh btw, Safwan gave each of us a note and it made me cry as he said all the nice things since we’ve known each other last year. I was seriously touched that he did all that stuffs for us. I’m am going to miss everyone in MD. The last days of college were not as I expected it to be. Thanks for all the memories this nearly two years friends. It will all stay in the heart *sobs*.

Things get annoying when..

2008-10-07T22:57:00.005+08:00

One Word,

MAD, You Are So Annoying. He's been so cruel to me from the first moment he came. Haha. Next time kau Mad ah. That last thing you did before you went home was just sooo mean! Wanna know what he did? In front of the door, He answered his phone which doesnt beep actually and now I realised that. Then he was just standing in front of the door and said something like, "kami otw ne, kami arah rumah si Zai, si Zai wah. bla bla bla." Then I was standing there listening to every word he said, as if he's really talking on the phone. Skali kan, He stopped talking and said, "Nada wah Eksen ku". At that time I was still bangang and thought he was still talking on the phone. How silly. Haha. God, I just need to kill someone right now. But hey, at least I can still laugh today despite the Emo-ness I've been since this morning and the constant bitching towards Aida. Maybe its due to the cancellation of our plan for today and also the disappointment because of someone/something. I cant wait to see Moon tomorrow. I haven't seen her for exactly 2 weeks!

Oh, Im so hungry. But I think Im just gonna sleep now, after I finished battling with Aida THE SLUT about Guy matters. She's such a SLUT. And she's getting on my nerves everytime she says that she also likes the Guy I Liked and she dont even know them nor talk to them or seen them. How annoying is that?

Btw, Thanks Sooo much to my Lovely ELIT mate Faiqah who brought the cakes for us. It was sooo delicious, seriously. The best I've tasted so far. I feel like eating more now. Haha.

2008-10-07T21:39:00.005+08:00

Mad texted me,

Mad: Rumah Dikau?
Me: Yeah, Why?
Mad: Kan melanggar laaaa. Cmmmmon laaaa
Me: haha bah let me know if kamu ampir udah.

Now im waiting, I dont know Who's he with. but the word melanggar scares me haha. Its already late now. They LOVE to come unplanned u know. Why dont they just tell me in the afternoon so I could get ready and maybe cook for them? (Yeah Right, just MAYBE).

So after he texted:

- put on some makeups (I dont want to be called PANDA eyes :P)
- changed to baju kurung, I had to wear yesterday's baju since i forgot to pick up my other bajus dry cleaning. Oh waitt, I asked my dad to pick it up. *wondering*
- grabbed the Hairdryer and do my hair. :)
- and prepare the living room.

Okay here comes his next message....

He's not here yet, and asking for my address, not again?

Happy Raya

2008-10-03T23:48:00.009+08:00

Tired, but not as tired as last year. 2nd Day 0f Raya's better than 1st day of raya. It was crazy though. Haha. I woke up late this morning and took 1 hour and half to get ready. Then to Nini Damit's house and after Friday Prayers to Azzie's. I met Ayu there. Awwwhh I miss her :) The food was hell nyaman, I Lotus food says Azzie haha. Next was to this guy's house. So the drama starts here Haha. Its not appropriate to describe everything here. All I can say is that Its HIS house. And Im super awkward. I was there for like more than half an hour. maybe an hour lah. Sasak jua ku tuu. HAHA. Malas eh kan cerita everything. I went home after that and went to Maksu's before Maghrib Prayers. Oh before that, Abby called me saying that He's coming tonight. I asked him to come tomorrow night as I might be coming back home late. But He insisted to come tonight so around 9pm I went home but he said he'll be coming really late cuz He's going to Azzie's first. Syirah came before 10pm and I was glad to see her :) And Abby came arond 10.30. Late berabis haha. And he went home just before 12am. He was with his cousin. And when he went to the toilet I was with his cousin all alone. It was awkward and I tried to start a conversation just to make me look friendly but all I said was, "You're his cousin kah?". Then he said, "Ah, Awu." Hahaha baru ia awkward berabis.

This morning at Nini Damit's the people were playing this new Raya song sang by Milin, My Uncle. And everyone cried when they heard the song titled 'Rindu Ayahanda' which is based on his true story :) It was soo lawa. I love the song. And Congratulations to Milin@Pak Ngah for being chosen as the Artist Of The Month on Pelangi FM for this month, October. Congrats, We are so proud :)

Im so happy today, and I kept thinking of the moment I saw him tadi. Im glad to see HIM but still, there's some anger. But he's so sweet. I cant tell you people why. :P

By the way,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO UNCLE HAKIM :)
MAY GOD BLESS YOU

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

2008-10-01T23:53:00.004+08:00

Im CRYING!

Ohh Ohh NOOOO!!!! IM NOT!!!

Its The Onions!

The people in this house are cooking for tomorrow.

Everything is squeaky clean and smells nice.

And I, smell like....fire crackers! LOL

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

IM SORRY FOR ANY TROUBLES I CAUSED AND ALL THE RUDENESS TO YOU PEOPLE. I DIDN'T DO IT ON PURPOSE. AND IN THIS VERY DELIGHTFUL MOMENT IM FORGIVING EVERYONE TOO ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTFRIEND :)

2008-09-29T22:31:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY GKAH
MY BFF :)

Welcome to eighteen ...don't blow it.

Although I've known you for only 1 1/2 year, but you have been such a good friend and always there for me when I need you. And now that you're 18 (I hate you), I just wanna wish you a very happy birthday. ILY BABE.

Anyway, Congratulations Babe! You're finally legal. but you only have 2 more years as a teenager, then you'll be officially old. And welcome to adulthood :)
Thanks for the treat and the sleepover babe. It was fun and we had a blast weren't we?

Last night at Gixe's house, eating cupcakes

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REMY

2008-09-28T15:16:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY REMY
Moon's Boyfriend and also a friend of mine ;)

May your day filled with happiness and Goodluck in everything.

Im gonna blog soon, after the Sleepover at Gixe's new house. Just the Four of us! How cool is that? Im gonna leave in a few mins. Im so excited! Haha. Im sorry this blog has been on hiatus for a while. Gonna update soon, I promise.

REPLIES TO TAGBOARD;

shasahmin: HAHA awu banar2 kami shopping, last minute lagi tuu. Wait til u see what si Chantique bought. Ia yg shopping berabis.
gixe: Im gonna change the song soon biitch. Haha. See you in a few minutes. HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY WHOREKU ;)
SYIRAH: Hii Syirah. I miss you babe, although I've seen you lastnight. But I didnt get to talk to you about a lot of stuff! HAHA.
zach: Okay jua the picture. Its CUTE. HAHA.